Rmb just a few weeks back I mentioned abt my chi teacher walking out of the class becos she was pissed off? My econs teacher walked out of the class yesterday as well.

I was so worried abt PI becos I've only submitted two drafts and I thought it wouldnt be up to par or smth.But it turned out to be ok, it's not fantastically perfect but at least I'm on the right track.Feeling thankful.

Symphony Of Praise II concert was amazing.But I was feeling sleepy cos I didnt take my afternoon nap.Loved guzheng's performance.

清晨的领悟。

刹那间而过。失去的， 真的无法再挽回。累了，松了，放了，毁了。

不相信命运，只相信自己。

没期望就不会失望。真的吗？ 

那怕是失望了。只要曾付出过， 努力过， 奋斗过，对得起自己，天塌下来又这么样。

Vaio baby crashed on saturday morning.My heart is still aching.I have to trot all the way down to wisma to get it repaired.It'll probably take a week or so before vaio baby gets back to my embracing arms again.

Do you remember how it felt like when you thought you were good at something for the very first time in your life, and someone just runs up and subjugates you by a mile? Face flat, hands down.It's a temporary failure, but its always the self-doubt that makes it permanent. 

Loved chew chor meng's victory on sunday night.He exuded a charm filled with courage and determination which I really admired.

Stayed back for project smile, it was very very enjoyable.I learnt so many cool magic tricks I'm going to show off to everyone.The first trick the facilitator demo with jieqi was the ultimate power! I was completely stunned ok, huiling was screaming beside me the whole time.

I hope we have a nice team shirt.

I've got lotsa work to do with weekend, as usual.So many econs stuff to complete.I cant believe having to draw 6 graphs for the PED tutorial project.I'm kinda scared for the asian youth olympics opening shit.I dont even know what the whole thing is abt.

Today's hgeog lecture was just war.The gorilla in front of me turns her head to talk at a rate of 10 times per second.She drew a chain of abt 30 smiley faces on my leg.I made her clean up the mess on my leg using wet tissue.Shiok.I just stuck my leg out and she wiped it for me, my loyal slave hahahahahahaha.

Does anyone have isabella tan hui juan's photo? If have, pls send to my email thanks.Anyway isabella you thai imposer, I left a long offline message for you.Go check it.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Sudden overwhelm of emotions.I'm just going to sleep it off.Anyway I got back to plmgs to collect grad cert.10 years of donning the white-belt uniform.Irreplaceable.

I am mooooooody.Today's method of diff test sure flunk with flying colours.

Headed to ikea with jieqi, xuanhui, huiling and zining baby to satisfy our cravings for meatballs.It's the most awesome stuff and I cant believe zining baby didnt touch the jam at all! I had so much fun at the play area in the cafe and I was trying to psycho everyone to join me but they just gave me weird stares.I played with the steering wheel and I was telling jieqi to stand behind me while I drive my imaginary taxi, and he just walked off.Hahahahahahahaha.

"After eating Jasmine wanted to go play in the kids play area in the restaurant. She is just crazy like that.But it actually turned out rather entertaining."

But huiling and jieqi eventually joined me as well! With our body sizes, we clearly dominated more than one-third the area.The rest of the kids just had to sit by the side and watch us play.And then there's this boy who talked to me randomly and I seriously find his eyes very charming.I asked for his name and he said "daren" but apparently I heard it as "deodorant".Just as I was abt to leave ,he said, "bye bye pretty girl".I made him repeat that for like 5 times, his words are so melodious to the ears.

I'm so tired now I want to die.

The class pissed the chi teacher away just now.Historical sia (still hate this word) she just switched off the lights and walked out on us.I was like flabbergasted.I can hardly recall a proper lesson we had without any breaks/early let-offs.Does anyone rmb that we're taking a'levels chinese this year? Looking at the polariod stuck on my wall, I'm really thankful to have encountered a teacher like goh hui cheng at least once in my lifetime.You can really feel her passion for her job.She's gotten the president award for teachers before.Her accolades just speaks for itself.

Anyway, nanyang gz ftw! You guys are gonna own the stage tmrw, play yr best.Make all the failing of tests worth it.Jinle rmb to find me tmrw morning ok I will hug you, as promised.

Suddenly had this brainwave and came up with a crazy idea.It's been a long time since I stayed sane.I need to unleash.I am so excited to carry out my plan , can you feel my excitement bursting out? Obviously you cant.It has already burst.Everyone is ostracizing me tonight becos they think I'm full of shit -inserts a sad smiley.

I hope this week will be a good one.Esp a good closure to it.

Wanna eat kinder surprise, now now now now now! I shall wake up dad up and tell him so.He will definitely get it for me.He's a very irritating man, but still the best.Mom's coming back from her japan conference on tues, she just called home. Funny convo, awesome family.

They always tell you the initial climbing is the hardest.But after you've been through all the ups and downs, you'll realize that the climb isnt difficult.

It's the sustaining that kills.

I'm very willing to trade anything to be in yr position.This week's probably the worst one ever this year.Just because of those few pieces of paper.But yes like I've said, I'll make up for everything and I hope it'll all be fine when it all blows over.

"I'm so close to giving up.Just so close".I gave jj a cursory hug , a slight pat on the back and walked away.Just a few words from P this afternoon and I momentously felt like crying.It just felt so real and tugged hard at my heartstrings.I absolutely understand what those two are going through.

Maybe, just maybe.We'll only be able to find ourselves by losing ourselves first.Take heart anyway.I'm okay.

JC life should totally just be about vigorously pasting yr classmate's campaign stickers all over your uniform.I come home with an average of 9 stickers on my uniform for the past few days.Damn fun seriously.Come home remove stickers, tmrw go to school paste all over again.

Everyone takes mich and gw's stickers like as if it's free.

(omg hahhaha can you spot wenyi's hand! )

The sneakers picture above reminds me of chi lesson which was nothing but a major laughing session.I was desperately trying to concentrate on the worksheet whereas my chi teacher was saying some stuff which was of no academic value and started to sing some chi song.I got very irritated so I shushed her up, twice in a row.I'm now capable of making teachers shut up, dont I just rock.But after I finished my ws, I started disturbing jieqi while he was doing the ws hahahahaha he couldnt concentrate either so he ended up being the last one to finish.The whole duofu-fiona thing was really mean, but damn funny.

Washington sch or imagination room? I gotta make my decision carefully.$180 for a two-hour crash course is no joke.

I should really kill myself at this moment.I dont know how it happened, but it just did.I feel so...ajsdgajshdgashd screwed up.But I am feeling a tad bit happier now because I just had two helpings of subway's egg mayo sandwich.Only food and sleep can make me happy.

I'll make up for everything.Promise.

Whilst walking home I witness smth which really really left a huge impression in me.At that very moment, I just felt thankful.For everything I have, for everyone I know.I just couldnt take my eyes of that woman.I really wanted to dash across the road and grab the bag off her shoulders for her.

I passed the geog test which I didnt study for (becos I couldnt be bothered to print the notes).This is like pure miracle.I seriously hope I get a decent grade for mrp if not I'll be suicidal and eat up all of kuek's carbon pills.GP essay writing today was the best.Hahahahaha! "I tried to copy but I cant see a shit".

There's this blood donation drive in sch and everyone is so enthu abt it.Is this the school culture or what, scary.But I like the design of the bandage given! I hope it comes in blue colour ahahhahaa I am going to rip it off someone's wound if I see it tmrw.Nabs went for the drive and she happened to sit beside me during GP.

J: so....how much blood did they draw out of you?
N: about 150ml
J: omg that's like one entire milo packet

Gonna die now.

Pain, you just have to ride it out and fight it through.Because the truth is you cant outrun it and life always makes more.

K I'm hungry and argh I hope you realize you're the one confining yrself up so stop complaining I'm have no time for you.You're crazy.

It came at the right time, and it stucked me hard.

All the way.

Boundaries dont keep people out, they fence you in.

You dont have to force yrself to respect the decisions I make.It doesnt matter if you are for or against every step I take.Honestly, your words dont matter because you are not important to me at all.Only the opinions of those I truly love, is of significance.And it so happened that there's only one such person in this world.The only one person whom I pride over everything else- KP.

I have lotsa lotsa lotsa work to do.

I'm having so much fun with this software which R introduced to me, you get to polariodise yr pictures.It's pretty cute.

Ok so mich finally passed me the tag which she made for me, I tied it onto my bag and walked around the sch with it.I brought the same bag along to meet kings for lunch, he kept trying to rip the tag off.Jerk.Had lunch over at pizza hut and the two of us ordered so much food like its free.He got me this baby tasmania soft toy- I dont know what to do with it.I met mich there as well super concidental pls hahahahahaha we seriously have fate.

This is the only thing I wanna witness before I die.It's a kind of natural lightings and you'll only be able to find it at a certain part of the earth.I'm going to visit the place someday, its so beautiful.

Maths lecture was the ultimate powerhouse, by looking at everyone's faces you just know that no living thing in the LT understands what the lecturer was talking abt.I cannot imgaine sitting for recurrence relation's test, sure die one.

Had a team talk on court just now.There wasnt any bursting emotions within me.It's not like I dont care, but I think I forgot how to feel.Everyone was damn worked up.I just lie down and stare at the sky above.It's ok if we've reached dead end cos there'll definitely be a way out somewhere.Btw highest point is my fav drill because people said I look cool when I jump hahahahhahahaha I am happy girl.

There comes a moment when it's more than just a game, and you either take that step forward or turn around and walk away.I could quit anytime but here's the thing- I love the playing field.

For you, a thousand times over.

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Circuits yesterday was torturous, esp the leg lifts.

M: omg omg omg cannot alr cannot alr *grabs my hand very tightly*
M: cannot alr very pain very pain
J: are you giving birth or what!

I screwed the summation test in some way or another.I was literally stoning because the excitement in heading home striaght to sleep has overwhelmed me.I should seriously stop stoning (wow this is alliteration in action) cos it isnt good for brain development.

Shit I just woke up 30mins ago but I'm still tired so I'm going to sleep now, again.

I wanted to watch the second episode of my show, but something just pissed me off damn bad and it totally killed my mood.Oh yea I got reese chocs hehehehe you dont have.

Die lah die tmrw got test.

"Jasmine, I thought you were a very serious person at first impression.But after knowing you, I realized that you are actually full of shit".What better way to describe me than this.

It's 245am, sunday.I have a PI due tmrw morning.Apart from that, I have another handful of work to be done by tmrw as well.I'm very very tired now and I just wanna sleep it off.But I dont like the feeling of waking up with undone work awaiting me.My eyes are frying up.

Maybe we're not supposed to be happy.Maybe we're supposed to go through the pain, because pain is what makes us feel real.The stuggle it takes simply to be human.

It doesn't matter how tough we are, trauma always leaves a scar. It follows us home, it changes our lives. Trauma messes everybody up, but maybe that's the point. All the pain, fear and other shit. Maybe going through all of that is what keeps us moving forward. It's what pushes us. Maybe we have to get a little messed up, before we can step up.

Everyone has a shadow.The only way to get rid of the shadow, is to turn off the lights, stop running from the darkness, and face what you fear.Head on.

Almost the entire class got scolded for copying maths tutorial answers.She tried to reason things out with us today yet somehow I thought it really lacked sincerity.I wasnt one of those who copied, but I felt really pissed off anyway.I cannot stand the fact that she waited until people are freaking out before telling them its actually ok.I ran back to sch on tues for nothing.

Major screw up of maths LT test.It was difficult, but not as much as I thought it'll be.I just couldnt think at that point of time.I will most likely fail this paper.But I'm not very very dejected or what.I take things very lightly.Whats the big deal with failing, just work harder next time lor.

I was looking forward to the weekends.But after considering the amt of workload, I offficially conclude I have no weekends at all.I am just going to drown myself in PI, 800 words are you kidding me.