I caught the hangover movie with xinhua this evening. It's a disgustingly good show. Should be rated M18 instead of NC16. Initially I opted for harry potter but ended up getting my mind tainted with all the crude visuals from hangover argh. Met mom for dinner at manhattan's fish. Tried caesar salad for the first time and its amazing that I could finish it all up, considering how much I hate veggies. The service was pretty good for a mainstream restaurant. But nothing can beat the service at equinox (swissotel stamford). Their service is first class, for me.

The initial respect I had for you took a sudden plunge the moment I read the words on your facebook status a few days back. Stop ranting abt all the shit we are putting you through. Show some professionalism please and if you're not happy, you should just quit your job and get out of this place.

Awesome day, done lots of shit except to pay attention. I've been wearing the PE attire to sch in the morning and not changing out of it. Damn smelly and disgusting.Okay maybe changing out doesnt come into the picture. I dont even bring my uniform to school.

Sneaked into the lecture hall for geog, by breaking through the back door. It's damn fun cos everyone was stucked outside the hall since the main doors were locked and I was happily figuring the steps/lightings in the dark lecture hall. Bought the fav potato biscuits to munch on during lecture. Luckily james didnt see.

I felt as if hazel's words were all directed at me this morning cos I failed the fiscal policy and open markets test horribly. I obviously didnt study for it at all thats why all the answers I wrote were completely off. She wrote, "creative answer" on my paper. I'm taking it as a compliment.

Hmmmm there's maths LT test tmrw. I still cant get the reciprocal graphs right. I'm very confused with the entire chapter actually but I still wanna thank peiyunzxz for her help.

Sometimes I just wish everyone's voices could be stripped off for a moment. I hate people who dont know when to stop talking. It irritates me a lot because all I hear is a cacophony of noises penetrating the air.

I have PE at a very unearthly hour tmrw morning. Tonny's fault. I hope we can play smth fun for a change and stay away from that particular ball game with a retarded name I cant rmb. It's stupid how everyone stands in front of the frame and catches the rebound ball and throws it back at the frame over and over again. Games with a certain routine and strokes are not fun at all.

In the spaces between yes and no, there's a lifetime. It's the difference between the path you walk and the path you leave behind. It's the gap between who you thought you could be and who you really are. It's the legroom for all the lies you'll tell yourself in the future.

What happened then, doesnt matter now.

Couldnt get onto the net since yesterday cos the awesome dad forgot to pay the internet bills. Called singtel, "you have some issues with the billing deparment". The internet will most probably be up fastest by next week, argh. So I'm currently at isabella's place tapping onto her wireless connection. I'm so tired now I dont want to go home. Today is an angry day because duofu rolled his eyes at me. Even my parents dont dare to do that to me. Finally had a taste of pontian(kovan) this afternoon! It doesnt feel authentic though, I bet the one at far east's better.

I'm begining to hate K and Z. How come.

Rmb one of the posts whereby I mentioned that both the chinese and econs teacher walked out of the class cos they were too pissed off at us? Well, the geog teacher walked out on us today.

Impromptu decision this morning to skip maths lecture, so I could witness the eclipse on tv. It was so worth it.

The very moment before totality hits (diamond ring effect)was definitely the most spectacular image ever painted across the skies. Watching how the moon slowly obscured the sun after first contact and leaving parts of China/India shrouded in immediate darkness is simply amazing. If darkness could always be accompained with such wonderful sky views, I'll gladly live in darkness for the rest of my life. Loved the motions after third contact too, when you start seeing glimmers of rays breaking into view. I'm not exagerrating or what cos the eclipse was really damn awesome lor. Those who didnt catch the live coverage of the eclipse, it's really your loss. You could easily browse millions of photos and videos on eclipse and it'll never beat the experience of witnessing that momentous beauty for yourself- even if its through your tv screens. Or maybe it's just me. But yeah whatever I love the things I do.

If you received some kind of email from me with some photos attached, dont open it cos its a virus link. Stop asking me if the email is a virus or not. I mean, you seriously thought I had photos to share with you? Ah ok I'm just being irritating here cos I'm pissed so dont take offense. I'll pack my stuff and camp over at the new studio apartment this weekend or smth. I need escape.

I'm plagued by several issues at hand now and I still have to deal with all the crazy friends of mine. One is busily evolving some shit and another one who just got my handphone number this afternoon, is just plain mad.

S: hi jasmine!
J: who are you?
S: i'm the one whom you were crazily flirting with just now

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

That frog came up to me and asked me some questions pertaining to graphs, she still dare to say I flirt with her. I was too shocked to reply her sms.

Just because someone doesnt love you the way you want them to, it doesnt mean that they dont love you with all that they have.

I've been living off instant noodles these days. I am going to die young. Caught a little bit of heroes in the afternoon and woah I think I'm addicted to it, show's too awesome to resist. I'll like to have flying abilities too. Free-falling's the best damn thing ever.

Everything will be okay in the end.

If it's not okay, then it's not the end.

Made a good mess out of the a'levels chi orals. I was blabbering my own nonsense which most probably doesnt relate to the question asked. Think I will fail chinese horribly, serious.But its ok I just have to eat some choc hello panda and I'll be a happy kid all over again. Meeting isabella and lishan for vball later and having dinner with the family at chomps. I can finally relax and keep my mind off academic matters. This week completely flew past.

I need a major revamp of my life. I feel I'm always in a drifty mode and I can hardly pay attention to anyone/anything.

Lost the nike bottle in one of the lecture theatres. I cant find it anymore. This is the second one I've misplaced this year. This must be some kind of signal to me. If I lose another bottle,I'm going to quit school. But I'm still hopeful abt finding the nike bottle back.

I dont know why she so willingingly gave up that good opportunity away just like that.No considerations, no drawbacks. Just left the rest to die from the repurcussions of it. Gotta admit her sudden leave wasnt exactly a very responsible thing to do. But the thing is, I love people like that. Nonchalance without the lackadaisical element.

GP marks are horrendous.

"Sure?? All of them?? Everytime? You sure they all do that? How do you know??"

The comments left on my essay section. Putting so many question marks in a sentence isnt really befitting of a GP teacher. Personal view. I dont have good impressions of people who do not write in succint and clear points to get their message across. Argh shit this I have no idea what I'm rambling about. I'm just angry that my handwriting is ugly. There isnt a direct link between both issues but whatever.

I AM GOING TO DIE WTF LIFE IS SCREWED HAHAHAHAHAHA.

So how do we go on from here? I'm stuck, and I suck.

Woah got back chi results. I got 8 marks subtracted for the compo because I wrote many wrong words. I knew I had a few mistakes here and there cos I didnt have enough time to check through, but cmon 8 marks is drastic. I intially scored 50/60 for my compo ok. Pissed but anyway I just wanna show off only.

I've never paid full attention during lectures/tutorials before.Just realized it today.

Jogged. Walked barefooted for one round before I left. My feet felt so cooling. But now it's all red and itchy. Chomps for dinner with the girls. I cannot stop my sudden outbursts of silent laughter. Argh. It's not like there was any joke made or what. I just had to laugh. I must have looked like an idiot.

I chanced upon this tumblr filled with architecture stuff. All the houses shown are too gorgeous to be real. I'm going to upload all my favourite ones in a new post. No, it's not because I want to share with you guys. But because after dumping the pictures here, I can delete them away in my folders and free up space.

I am jealous and feeling sour now. Jealously isnt exactly a very positive emotion. But it evidently shows how much you matter to me. So near yet so far. We havent been talking much. I miss you.

I have a great escape plan tomorrow.I hope everything goes smoothly.

mom: jasmine you everyday on the computer what you doing
J: I doing work lah
mom: you everyday say you doing work, dont bluff me
J: I really doing work
mom: bet you are busily twittering right
J: twit your ass lah
dad: way to go, jasmine yeo

Lectures resuming next week. Yuck.

T: are you a christian?
J: no, obviously not
J: just look at how much I've sinned
T: yea expected

I like project work. Because its when everyone's real personality starts showing up one by one. You can distinctively differentiate the slackers from the ones that really stand by their responsibilities and see it through to the very end. And no, this isnt a personal attack or whatsover.

I'm so screwed. Not prepared for the things that are coming my way. I need to stop living in my own cave.

I'm incredibly tired now. But I doubt I'll be sleeping anytime soon. I dont have the luxury to do so anyway since the deadline for WR submission is tmrw and there's still loads of stuff to be done. I been on the laptop for 4 hours already. I feel like my soul left me or smth I cant think properly now. Cant wait to get WR over and done with.

Though PW's sucking the life out of me, I'm enjoying school these days because everything's slow and easy. It's like own time own target. Have been secretly going up to fifth-floor classroom with T to watch heroes right before lectures.Fun. PW discussions every afternoon is entertaining becos you can just hear shouts and sighs all the time. James finally did something useful apart from showing us his useless first class honours thesis. He brought a mobile wireless modem for the class which is damn damn good because the college's iCell connection is so slow it drives people mad. Yesterday I asked if it was because the school forgot to pay the internet bills.

WR, oral, econs keynes tutorial, heroes, jerica.

You can easily erase someone from your mind. But getting them out of your heart is another story.

Fuck meritocracy. If we arent even given equal chances to begin with then really, whats the point of working hard anyway. You can work twice as hard as someone else, and still lag behind them for life.

I managed to borrow the heroes VCD today and I'm very happy so I went round telling people how excited I am but no one gives a shit abt me. But then again its ok.

Super tired this morning actually, but I dragged myself to tampines anyway to get a present for jinle. Tried carls jr for the first time and wow, the buger's so big.Now my parents have a good reason to stop complaining that fast food isnt filling anymore. I had frolicks too and somehow the girls there arent as pretty as the ones at serangoon gardens. Got a pair of jeans from uniqlo and I'm so happy with their efficient alteration service.

I believe the saddest thing in life, is caring so much for someone and then one day you look into their eyes and listen to them talk and realize that they are gone. All you see in front of you is a stranger with just a known name.

You never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back.

Virgin trip to T3 this afternoon with isabella! Havent been to the airport for a really long time. Chilled the entire time away at coffee bean, with our laptops and dsi. I had a horrible time trying to get my wireless@SG account working. But anyway, I played cooking mama and mario kart on the dsi. I came in first position for 3 consecutive races of the latter, and the dsi just had to run out of batt. Left for hougang in the evening whereby I got a new red mouse for my vaio baby. It's not the common kind of red, but a really really sexy red.

I'm aimlessly surfing random websites and blogs right now. Because isabella's using my mobtv account to watch the sneak previews of the current ch8 drama show, so I cant use the account yet. Hmmmm. And I just got a new high score for typing maniac. To those who owned me at bejewelled blitz, you guys should just eat my dust.

On a date with my mom tomorrow, who specially apllied for leave. Now recession everyone damn scared of being retrenched, she still dare to take leave and watch movie with me. Volleyball in the evening too! Excited!

Last mye paper ended yesterday afternoon. I didnt return home the entire night.

Had dinner with xinhua, jinle, jey, pris and seryin at plaza singapura. Those people can really make you laugh until you cry. Seryin kept laughing at me cos she spotted me smiling to myself several times, she laugh until damn high. All of them caught a movie thereafter and dumped me at cathay. Gallivanted around the place and luckily isabella called me up to chat if not I would have died of boredom.

Took a bus down to east coast park with xinhua and pris after their movie ended. Had a really hard time searching for sparklers and lightsticks. Lazed around coffee bean so pris could charge her macbook. Photobooth craze until 2am. Picture/video's all on facebook! I cant stand those gross expressions of mine and xinhua's, it's so disusting hahahahahaha. Headed over to the beach to find a nice breezy spot to play the paraphernalia we bought. The lightsticks are so pretty. Stayed there till 5am before going over to mac's for breakfast. Afterwhich, we returned to the beach yet again to catch the sunrise. I was so tired by then, I completely dozed off on the way back home.

Its 9am now and I'm going to sleep. I hope I wake up in time to meet kings for dinner if not he will nag at me like crazy. And isabella if you're looking at this, text me to confirm if we're still meeting up tmrw k. I scared I forget to text you. Bring yr dsi if we're meeting!

I dont know you, but I've definitely seen you around before.

Whatever it was that you were going through, it's all over already.Rest in peace, girl. I'm sure they all love you.

Time seems to be passing so slow. It's torturous and unbearable. The higher chinese people are making me so envious, they get two days off. I hope I wont fall asleep during chinese paper tmrw. 3 hours straight.

I always wonder what's worse. Wondering or knowing the truth.